Pointless BS

zZzZz…..

i don’t know how people do it. i don’t know how people are students AND full time employees. i’m exhausted. on top of the fact cracker barrel has been only scheduling me mornings

i’m just so tired.

this weekend i worked

saturday morning 9, had a decent amount of sleep the night before and woke up somewhat chipper.

sunday morning 8, the night prior was daylight savings, but i still didn’t fall asleep til 3ish, and woke up really tired.

monday morning 9, was up until 5am the night prior finishing homework. then school at 4. 

i work tomorrow (tuesday) morning, and class afterwards, then just class wed and thursday, 

and i actually have friday off. all day. omg, it’s a miracle. it’d be an even more awesome miracle if i was given sat morning off. if i happen to get it (which i’m not holding my breath) then i am going out drinking

i actually would like a monday morning off soon. i want to go to HOB

anyways, i’m just posting this because it’s something, and im just trying to find ways to stay awake for the next 1 1/2 hour til i leave for school.

yay mee….

But to counteract my sad song post

i feel i havent updated in a while. :)

In school. i actually start my second class next week. woo college student lol. theres a lot of headaches involved but i still feel like this is easy and i should have done it before. but im glad i value my education now. 

im currently talking to some guys :) not even in a slut way! lol.  There’s andrew whom i have been on a few dates with, chris who’s in iraq but coming to visit with summer and nate in december, stephen and i are now friends again.. hmm. lol, garry who flirts with me at work, and has the most adorable baby girl EVER! like seriously, i dont like babies, they’re gross, but this little girl, just… awhhhhhhh lol and garrys SMOKING HOT MODEL FITNESS INSTRUCTOR brother. as nice and attractive and well stabled as garry is, i feel i could never even talk to garry, because his brother, is like, and angel carved in human form. uhhh. bowchickabowbow. lol but yeah :) 

but really, its only andrew :) its just weird, because hes a great, nice, guy. totally not my type. yet i still like him. just, how long can someone not your type be your type, you know? lol its nothing serious, nor do i think it will get serious, and i kinda feel bad like im stringing him a long. but i do genuinly like him. and im willing to see where this goes

my job sucks. i hate cracker barrel. its like a step up from dennys. i know i can do so much better, but fucking florida sucks. so i just bought a gram of this AHHMAZING weed, and when im done smoking it, im temporarily quitting lol. target starts hiring mid oct. and i know i’ll need to pass a drug test. so time to clean it up a bit. lol

what else… i think thats really it. 

marissas wedding was beautiful. like something you would see on tv. so pretty.

not to sound concieted, because im really not (with my self esteem, it’s ok to be proud of things) but man, i think im getting hotter. or something. because even at the wedding i had guys tryin to flirt and dance with me.

cuzzzzzzzz im a pimpette like that. 

I enjoy the attention being single has brought me. and andrew brings the benefits i want (cuddling, dates, making out) so you know what, im pretty happy. the only way it can get better, is if i get a better job lol.

i’d say im 75% happy. add a better paying job, and the fact there’s always room more more happiness, and i’d say im pretty well off.

plus, with my student loan money, im buying myself a pretty present (starts with a D… ends with a lot of $$$)

School

though its been very frustrating with valencia…

in 2 weeks i will be a college student :)

yay me and getting my life worked out!

OLD MYSPACE- The Email that Started it All

The Beginning to the End. yet another Emo Post; (Sn: i hate these sometimes because it sounds like i always post about him. but in reality, besides seeing reminders in everything, im not like this IRL

Btw, I guess you were right, you are worthless

preston says I haven’t told her about you that happened before we got married.
you were the only person I thought it would be worth losing her for. I tried to be a good husband, but im worthless. if I couldn’t even keep her… then I have no chance in ever finding some that would love me forever. all im good at is fucking stuff up. so yaaay :(
anyways, I might be down in florida in like 2 weeks cause I gotta drop my dog off at moms since im about to lose my house over this shit.

————————- Original Message ————————-
From: Beka May [[ Social Suicide ]]
To: preston james 
Date: Jun 7, 2009 10:54 PM
Subject: Re: yay


omg that totally sucks! SHE cheated on YOU? if anything, i thought it would be the other way around, always. did you tell her about me? lol that would shut her the fuck up. 

dude, for real, i always thought you could get better. i was always wondered why you were with her. did she leave you for a chick? bc i always thought she was a dyke 

you know im here for you, your best friend for life. 
<3 beka 

————————- Original Message ————————-
From: preston james
Date: Jun 8, 2009 2:58 AM

so my wife is cheating on me and wants a divorce. so I though I would let you know that you were right, no matter what good traits I might have.. im still worthless.